shifting sand

mix and match

this is a run-through of my vacation so far.

i am back in iligan. yes, i am... in invisible mode. blame my dental necessities and my failure to announce my not-so-new number. i missed the chance to meet with people i haven't seen in a long time. sigh.

i have a routine when i come home--buy bibingka for daddy, greet my cousins next door, and give quicky a belly rub. then instead of resting (i only had two hours of proper sleep, then a nap during my flight), i had a chore, and another one, and another one. this went on for a couple of days.

my budget for christmas gifts doubled. but i recently realized that increasing my spending just because i have more to spend is not a very wise thing to do because i won't be able to save.

kuya went back to manila early because he had a surgery to perform on the day after christmas. his flight was supposed to be on christmas day but it got delayed then moved to the next day. i hope there was a lesson learned for this OR junkie.

i also had a number of whirlwind shopping sprees. stuff are easier to buy (due to the proximity of the stores) and they are cheaper here.

dunkin donuts is the place to meet here. i met eigen and jordan there with my sister then we walked all the way to the sushi place at batsy's (did i spell that right?) in pala-o. i also met with joan and dominic there then we went to zoey's. the food and coffee were nice. we had pizza bites, burger, calamares, iced coffee, sprite, mocha frappe, and choco mousse. ^_^ we have pictures. will upload them later.

i finally got to ym with benj. he's been so busy...

i've been suffering from insomnia and indifference lately. hope things will be okay starting today.

i've also been playing neopet games again and travian at server 6, NE.

oh yeah, pursue the chicken named holiness! or something like that. =p

happy new year! ^_^

spilled

i almost used up a pack of tissue last night, but not from crying.  i had been unusually scatter-brained yesterday with my blunders ranging from not following the instructions in the exam to inserting my id into the atm slot to knocking over my drink and so on.  but one shouldn't cry over spilled milk or coke float...

i'm not the kind of person who dwells on regrets.  i find it so easy to detach myself from people and things that disappoint or hurt me.  i can walk away without glancing back. 

but last night, i learned to go on my knees and get my hands dirty.  i cleaned up my own mess instead of just ignoring it or running away.

i am learning to do the same with my life, with my relationships.  i am doing what i can in rebuilding from the rubble.  and by His grace, i know i won't be alone in this.

warning: spoilers ahead

When I was your age, they would say you could become cops or criminals. What I'm saying is this: When you're facing a loaded gun, what's the difference?

~Frank Costello, The Departed

i just came home from watching the departed with tin and kuya eson. i was supposed to watch a no-brainer but they persuaded me. i forgot to check if step up was still being shown so it'll have to wait.

i found it to be really witty. and it was full of violence. i definitely loved it! tin and i watched it twice. kuya eson was snoring by the second run. he woke up in time to see his favorite part. i love movies that come full circle like this. i try my best not to elaborate for those who still plan to watch. i'm nice, see? unlike some people... =p

another spoiler ahead... highlight at you own risk. they all die in the end. don't say i didn't warn you. <evil laugh>

i had an adventure today. ^_^ we also ate at sbarro earlier. we tried their best-seller, the chicago deep dish. it tasted like you're biting into pizza and pasta at the same time. i prefer eating those separately. but it was good. and the risk added spice to it.

this part is for ate abi and our i'll try to be shallow challenge. matt damon and leonardo di caprio were so cute! and jack nickolson was so cute in his rat portrayal! lolz.

i had a movie date with a rat once. it sat on my lap and we watched the grinch who stole christmas together. i froze in place until it decided to go away.

by the way, i dreamed of becoming a police officer when i was a kid. it was one of those childhood dreams my sister shattered.

kuya eson, thank you for agreeing to see tin and me home safely.

an even trade?

lean's cooking pancit canton for me in exchange for using the pc. hope he doesn't mess up...

quench

after two cups of coffee
and how many drinks,
the lingering headache
slowly begins to dull.
i swallow the bitterness
with each glass poured
and long to quench my thirst
for meaning.
i gaze into the sky,
the moon stares back in
its fullness
and i wish to glimpse
the sunrise.
but the tinted glass
is like a veil separating me
from the dawning of the day
and all its beauty
lies out of reach.
i dream of dancing
to the beat of the drums
to the song that beckons to my soul.
the swirling music,
a rushing river
then silence.

uh-oh!

we had a late dinner at a certain place that serves mexican food. i'm not placing the name because i forgot what it is and it's not really worth mentioning... upon reading the menu, i was surprised to find cali under the beer category. it was the same disbelief a friend displayed when i ordered that drink along with my burito for lunch in mexicali. that happened back in the 14th of october last year. is cali considered an alcoholic drink? that question has been bugging me since. i tried researching and it left me empty-handed. now i'm back right where i started.